God is Good

What if God asked you to give up one of the people you loved most? What would you say? What would you do? Would you still trust God and believe that He is good? Would you do what He asked of you?
Well a couple of weeks ago, God asked me to do just that. He asked me to give up a man that I loved. That I had dreamed about having a future with and cared about deeply. At first I was confused (we were confused). We tried to rationalize why we shouldn't break up and strategized on how we could make it work. But in the end we submited. God knew what was best and trying to go against his will was futile. This does not make it easy. Oh no. It was one of (if not the) hardest things I have ever had to do. To say goodbye to someone I loved and was in love with.
But God gave us peace. He gave us strength and He allowed us to end our relationship with no loss of respect for one another. I am so thankful that God gave me a man in the first place who was ok with this.
Now why am I writing all this? Well to reflect. Mostly for myself but also to remember all the goodness of God. To remember that he is constant and remains good. Yes you heard me good. Amidst all the change going on my life and the difficulties of letting go, God has remained by my side and has constantly reminded me of His love. Every time I am lonely, He meets me where I am and gives me a friend or a sign (eg. sunset) to remind me that I am not alone. Every time sadness overcomes me, He holds me while I weep. Every time I wonder what to do with the time that I used to spend with my loved one, He fills that time with Himself and we have time together. He has remained constant. The One and only constant in the chaos of life. I've realized through this time that I can be overwhelmed by looking at the chaos that surrounds me, the chaos that is life. Or I can focus on Him and be strengthened by him.
I have begun to memorize scripture again and my verse for this week is Deuteronomy 32:4 it says, "He is the Rock, His works are perfect and all His ways are just. A faithful God who does no wrong. Upright and just is He." I am comforted by this. "He is the Rock", what a beautiful picture. God does not change, nor will he ever. He is not swayed by what is going on and He will not move. And if I use Him as my foundation I will be solid for life. "His works are perfect and all His ways are just" this means that everything He does (including what is going on in my life) is perfect. It may be painful, but it is perfect. "Just" - you know what that means? Guided by truth. He is guiding truth into my life. "A faithful God" I can be comforted that even though I am not always faithful, He is. He will never leave me or forsake me. "who does no wrong" Even when I don't understand, that doesn't mean that it is wrong. I just lack understanding and thus need faith. "Upright and just is He" He is good and guided by truth. I know I can depend on Him.
These two weeks have been so incredibly hard, but so incredibly good. God has been so faithful and I have never been closer to Him. I thank him continually for the friend and companion that I had for a time as well as for the time that I now have with Him.
I am not perfect and I don't always have such a positive perspective, but like I said. God is faithful and reminds me that I am not alone and that even when I don't have the strength, He does.
God is good. I hope I never forget that.

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  1. Kaitlyn, I feel for ya. I've been there too. So glad that we serve a faithful God. ~hugs~

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  2. Abby! So good to hear from you. I had no idea that you went through this. I would love to chat. Definitely thankful that God is so faithful. I love you friend.

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